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26 March 2010

What Now

It happened. It finally fuckin happened. So my appeal decision came on Wednesday, 24 March. At the moment, it became clear how fucked up the system is. The Appeal Board felt the same way as the Admin Judge back in October. What does that mean, you ask? To put it frankly, they felt I wasn't doing enough to handle my debt and clean up my credit. So there solution was to keep me from getting a security clearance that is a requirement to keep my job. Now I'm unemployed and completely unable to handle my debt. Someone explain to me why if someone is financial trouble it's a good idea to decrease or remove that person's income? I can only somewhat see their point of view. They feel that I'm more susceptible to foreign influence because I have a lot of debt. What I say to that is simple....if a foreign government or terrorist organization offered a person a 7 figure amount, I'd be no more susceptible then someone with perfect credit. Especially considering I've been working on fixing it. Secondly, the US government is fuckin themselves with every press release informing the public about our capabilities. Ever since I saw that CNN special on the MQ-9, it just baffled me the stupidity to broadcast our capabilities and location to the world.

A famous quote that's constantly stated is "ask not what your country can do for you, but what you can do for your country". I enlisted in the Air Force to get fucked over by my "superiors". I then continue to support the war effort by becoming an Air Force contractor. I deployed to Iraq in 08, Afghanistan in 09, and should have been in Afghanistan right now as we speak. All of this shit I've done for my country...that I volunteered for...yet my country that follows a broken system decides to take away my clearance because they feel I'm susceptible to foreign influence. My country decides to prematurely end my job. My country decides to put myself and my family on the streets because I'm supposedly susceptible to foreign influence. Yea, that makes so much fuckin sense. Makes no fuckin sense.

I guess it's not all doom and gloom. I can reapply 29 October so as long as my shit gets taken care of by then....I'll be good. Yet I dont have a fuckin income to file for bankruptcy so how the fuck am I going to take care of it? There goes that fuckin logic again.