The Mind of B

I want to speak my mind and heart. I turned 33 10-days ago and the only thing that I felt was emptiness. I've been struggling all my life on what I want to do in my life and the more I think about it, the more lost I become. Being alone in the southwest doesn't help things as I feel like I miss everything. Everything started so well on May 4th and then went to shit. I haven't been stressed like this in a long ass time and I truly felt myself breaking down. Every day I ask myself the same handful of questions, unable to get any answers. Combine that with how things are in the rest of the country, I've truly lost desire to remain in this world as a human being. No joke, I really have a hate for humans, it's weird. Obviously not all, but enough to make me detest this world. I'm not going to go through every single thing that is going on for anyone to really understand what I mean, but it's truly frustrating how the human nature can be. That as

CHAPTER 1 AFTER SILK’S DEATH I watched the ambulance leave as the crime scene was being quarantined. I zoned out during the initial process of cops arriving, taking pictures and doing the whole “cop thing”. I didn’t really snap back until I saw EMTs placing Silk’s lifeless body in a body bag. Investigators and Detectives approached me, but I wasn’t in the mood to talk. Scratch that, it wasn’t that I wasn’t in the mood; I literally couldn’t formulate a proper sentence. I was in shock. They quickly realized that I was in no condition to answer questions, so they left me with contact info for me to utilize when I finally could speak. I finally managed to get into my car and leave her place. I didn’t know where I was going to go at first as I started driving. There was no way I could go home right now. I didn’t expect to feel so distraught; never realizing my own admiration for her. Why didn’t I realize it before? No sense in dwelling on it now. For now, I need to clear my head.

"Dragon King?” Dovik stated as if he didn’t quite hear Moq correctly. “I was under the impression that dragons were a myth.” “So were we until Aleius discovered a hive in the Easter Desert.” Moq replied. “A hive?” Dovik looks at Moq in disbelief. “How did he discover a hive?” “I say discover but more like fell into their hive. While we were training in the desert, he fell into a sand pit and was trapped for 3-days.” We watched the dragon fly around in a circle. “I’m still unsure of what actually happened down there but when he emerged from a cave on the back of a dragon… It was the most unreal thing I’ve ever seen.” “He didn’t tell you what happened?” Dovik wondered. “I asked him but he wouldn’t tell me. If you ask me, I think it traumatized him.” Moq looks at Dovik. “But it also empowered him.” As they continued to observe the dragon, thoughts started running through Dovik’s head. He wasn’t sure if he should ask the questions that he was thinking of but, at the same time, h

How did this happen? I constantly ask myself this question the longer I float towards the surface. My hands were covered in blood but I can no longer tell if it’s mine or not. I’m sorry, Genevieve… I did all that I could. I can only hope you’re still alive somewhere. What I would give to see her smile again… To feel her lips and hold her body against mine with no desire to ever let her go. Wait… What am I doing? I swore I would protect her… I swore I would fight for her… I can’t die now; not like this. I must avoid getting to the surface. I look up as everything got brighter; confirming my close proximity to the surface. I attempted to move my fin; why is it so hard to move? I kept trying but realized I didn’t have the strength to do it. Shit… I guess this really is the end…. “ARI!!!!” Did I hear my name being called? “ARI!!!” There it is again. I open my eyes and look around. To my southwest, a figure started to approach me with blazing speed. “ARI!!!” As the figure got closer, I st